Access, Release, Transform!

 Soul Purpose

I was preparing for a session of Spiritual Direction with someone, and went to the book "Visual Journaling: Going Deeper than Words" by Barbara Ganim & Susan Fox to see if there was something I might need that day. I found "Discovering your Soul Purpose." I felt called to sit and see what would come up. This picture is what happened...there are several images that have come up over and over for me. The snail, the sun, the heart (double counting the one in the sun), and the mermaid. And then there's teeth on the heart and tail. The more I look at this image, the more I see. It leads me back to the poem I wrote many years ago called "Breathing Water." I found the second part of that poem. Contact me if you would like to read it! This picture represents a step in my own healing work that means I am breathing freely. The hurts and pains that I have carried around for years. I said to my own Spiritual Director the other day that my prayer life is whatever I am called to at the time. I am truly blessed that art is part of that! And that I can help share this with the world. It is beyond my wildest dreams! Thank you Lord! Thank you Mother! Thank you Jesus!

This beautiful piece was done by a 16 year old as her healing piece after learning how to Access, Release, & Transform.
In a spiritual direction session, to have such a beautiful piece come out for her, was exciting (for both of us)! I requested to take a picture to show on my blog. Isn't it amazing? Over and over, having shown people this work, I'm constantly amazed at the power of the healing work! This work is for the world!

About a month ago, I worked with a group of women at The Nest: Center for Women, Children, & Families, for their Relationship Recovery Workshop. There wasn't a lot of talk but I hope you agree with me, their art is powerful! There are issues of safety and sharing the work for them. Issues I hadn't thought of before. I am cautious about asking people to talk about their work, especially where trust is an issue. I hope to be able to go again! Thanks to Elizabeth Morton for bringing me in to work & meet them and to the women for allowing me to take a picture of their work!

   
I am busy sewing for my daughter's wedding in June, but after that, this fall I will be looking for places to bring more healing work.

I am so grateful to be able to share with you!

My prayer for this next period is one of my favorite prayers from the book "Guerrillas of Grace: Prayers for the Battle" by Ted Loder. It's called

Loosen My Grip

O God, it is hard for me to let go,

most times,

and the squeeze I exert

garbles me and gnarls others.

So loosen my grip a bit

on the good times,

on the moments of sunlight and star shine and joy,

that the thousand graces they scatter as they pass

may nurture growth in me

rather than turn to brittle memories.

Loosen my grip

on those grudges and grievances

I hold so closely,

that I may risk exposing myself

to the spirit of forgiving and forgiveness

that changes things and resurrects dreams and courage.

Loosen my grip

on my fears

that I may be released a little into humility

and into an acceptance of my humanity.

Loosen my grip

on myself

that I may experience the freedom of a fool

who knows that to believe

is to see kingdoms, find power, sense glory;

to reach out

is to know myself held;

to laugh at myself

is to be in on the joke of your grace;

to attend to each moment

is to hear the faint melody of eternity;

to dare to love 

is to smell the wild flowers of heaven.

Loosen my grip

on my ways and words,

on my fears and frefulness

that letting go

into the depths of silence

and my own uncharted longings,

I may find myself held by you

and linked anew to all life

in this wild and wondrous world

you love so much,

so I may take to heart 

that you have taken me to heart.

Bless you Ted Loder! 

How do I use art to heal?

Meet "Lizzie"

This week my spiritual advisor and I were talking about feelings. He asked me to tell him what image I would put to the feeling that I happened to be talking about right then. I told him about "Lizzie" who is a lizzard who climbs trees and is very fast and free! There is that part of my personality that is a climber! And when I am joyful this is how I feel! We each have many parts to our personalities. Some we like and others we'd just as soon not have!

The dragon is also a part of my personality. When she comes out I am so angry I breath fire! She was one of those parts of my personality that I had to make friends with! I tend to come up with animals to describe what I am feeling. When I need to protect myself my snail side comes out. I carry everything on my back and am quite slow at times to move on. It was a great way to discuss what has been happening to me. It is an important step in healing to be able to accept yourself and who you are. But sometimes we need something beyond words to help us grasp that which goes deeper than words.

Try this when you notice yourself being overwhelmed by a feeling, (it works especially well when you get stuck) place an image to it. First try moving. Swing your arms around, move your legs. (I like to walk a labyrinth when it's available) Sit down with crayons or color pastels with a piece of paper (8 x 10). Crayons or pastels work best because they are like those sticky emotions! Put your feet on the floor and close your eyes. Begin to breath deeply, taking 3 deep cleansing breaths in and out. On the third breath, make a noise as you exhale. Ask your spirit to give you an image or color that will represent this feeling. Try to find where in your body this feeling resides. And when you are ready open your eyes and begin to draw with your non-dominant hand (if right handed use your left). Even if you don't get an image see which color you are drawn to and just begin putting something on the page.

Let yourself draw until you are satisfied with it. Remember it doesn't have to be a Rembrandt. One of the things you won't be able to do is bring the part of you that is your critic to this process because you are using a different side of the brain than you are used to using. Did you get an image? Sometimes I get no more than scribbles on the page. How do you feel? Is there a difference? Look at your picture. What was the first color you put on the page? The colors correspond to different energy places on our bodies called chakras.

If you don't know why you are feeling a certain way this is a great way to help yourself map out your emotions. Red has to do with family of origin issues, safety and security. Orange has to do with our ability to accept our feelings and emotions. Yellow has to do with our peers, friends and enemies and our personal power. Green is where we hold our ability to open our heart, to give and receive love, and to release judgement. It is where we hold our life lessons and our abilty to teach others what we have learned (my favorite color!) Blue is where we hold our ability to speak up and to communicate our truth. To defend ourselves and others and to express what we are feeling and what we know. Purple is the place where we hold our ability to tune into messages from the body and it's energy. It provides us with knowing about ourselves, others, and what may happen. This is where we hold our creative energy. White is our spiritual center. The place we hold our ability to release and surrender to a higher power. Black is a place where something is still hidden from us (a place of no light). It will come into the light as we are more able to work through our emotions. And so Brown then is something coming into the light almost ready to take on a color.

Once you've had time to work with your cleansing image to see what you are working on, next pull together a form of art supply that you love to work with. I like acrylic paints for this part of the healing process. You could use water color, pencils, pastel chalks, clay, oils, material, collage, sculpture. (Make it bigger than an 8 x 10) This time you will create a healing image to replace what has been stuck in you. And this time as you create use whichever hand you want. Give yourself time to work on this creation as long as you need. You use the same proceedure (sit with your feet on the floor to begin, close your eyes, breath in 3 times and make a noise on the third time, ask your body and spirit for an image to heal this emotion. And then begin.

Put this creation in a place where you will see it every day for three weeks. And then display it where you will see it all the time. Looking at a healing image will help the cells of your body take in that healing! You will know when it is time. I am always amazed at the results and how beautiful each creation is. Honor what is given you because it is a gift from God (or your Higher Power!) When I have done this during a day retreat the diversity of images is breathtaking. I leave you with another of my own healing creations! Write to me with questions! They help!

               

As I was working with this artwork I followed my instincts. It needed to be 3 dimensional. You are free to use whatever you are drawn to. It could be quite surprising!